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2013-08-31 10:50 pm

Trent Reznor is spinning. Enter Shikari is shuffling.

Trent Reznor is spinning
Trent please get down.

Enter Shikari is shuffling.
Enter Shikari, please stop shuffling.
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2013-08-31 05:57 pm

Fun Packing

On Thursday, I got a text from my good friend Raveena asking if I could give her a ride to Amtrak at 9 in the morning the next day. I said, "Of course." Little did I know that I would only get about 4 hours of sleep that night and would end up accompanying her to her destination: UC Davis. Her sister was moving out (she had stayed for a summer session), so I also volunteered to help her with the process. I helped deconstruct a bed and pretty much everything that was too big in the house, as well as move all of it to a storage unit all the way in Sacramento (which is surprisingly close - I was not aware of this until yesterday). I had a lot of fun just hanging out with her and her sister; the siblings get along impeccably and I also got along well with the two, even though I didn't know Raveena's sister too well. I ended up coming back to Lafayette at 9:30 pm, after Raveena and I went to an IHOP for a much-deserved huge meal.

I was asleep by 11:00. I also woke up around 10:00 today. It was a packed, and fulfilling, day.
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2013-08-29 03:34 pm

My child

Oh a hot day in August, on the 29th, let it be known that I have completed the most significant project I have undertaken so far in my small span of existence: I built a PC.

The PC itself is nothing fascinating - the components are all typical of what you would find in a moderate- to high-end gaming computer. They all will run most of the games I play just fine if not downright exquisitely, in comparison to the laptop I had been using before.

But the reason this PC is so significant is that I built it alone. Not only did I literally put the thing together on my own, but I looked through the parts, I made sacrifices of performance in exchange for price, I compared the pros and cons of pre-built PCs to one I would build, and I spent a good amount of my own money for the build. The sheer fact that this project was even started and I had the dedication (for once) to see the entire process through to this end is eye opening for me. I've never had much dedication, unless of course I really like what I'm doing. The most time I've put into any other "project" was making playable and functioning maps in Halo: Reach. For that I would spend a couple days. For this, I spent a little under a month.

I feel like this is the beginning of a long, stable relationship; I will enjoy what this PC has to offer, become discouraged at what (little) it can't do, praise it, take care of it, help it get better when it grows old, and watch it meet and exceed my expectations. My PC will help me laugh, cry, find joy and sadness, keep me back and spring me forward.

Okay, enough poetry about a box of silicon.

In WoW, I've been playing as a healer in dungeons and I honestly find it the most fulfilling experience I've had in a game. I've always enjoyed support classes; I almost always played medic in TF2, Battlefield, and every other game that has a healing class. I just enjoy helping people, whether in games, or in reality. In Boy Scouts, I always loved volunteering. I got the Eagle Award by cleaning up a local park that the Lafayette City Council couldn't afford to clean themselves. I still regularly help at the Moraga Gardens Farm co-op. I joined the Urban Farmers and helped pull in an astounding 4,000 pounds of produce off of friendly citizens' fruit trees, all of which goes to help local food banks. I'm not doing this because I have to get 12 hours of community service for my school or any other requirements; I just like it.

Yay new PC
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2013-08-28 02:58 pm

What have I become

I bought WoW yesterday.
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2013-08-26 10:54 pm


I got the motherboard for my PC today! I ordered it on Friday and it got here Monday... that's some good shit, Amazon. Unfortunately, it's the most fragile part and I keep worrying I messed it up somehow before I even open the packaging. And it got here first, so I have the MOST time to actually mess it up.
Anyways, on Sunday, I woke up at 9:30 (something pretty rare for me) and went on an hour-long walk around my neighborhood (something even MORE uncommon). I came back to an awestruck mother. I'm really glad I'm getting out more often than I usually do. I'm turning a new leaf here. Hopefully.
I just really want to build this PC already! Ahhhhh
Also I may be buying World of Warcraft pretty soon, despite telling myself I'd never buy it. We all break promises.
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2013-08-24 08:23 pm

In Recent News

So a lot of stuff has happened recently that I'd say is worth mentioning.

Yesterday, I bought all the parts I'm going to need to build my own gaming PC. It's nothing amazing, but hey, it'll sure as hell beat the laptop I've been using for a year. I had to put every single setting down to its lowest, run it in windowed mode, and it would still barely run beyond 30 frames per second. And that's with games like Team Fortress 2.

On Monday, I went with my mom and dad to Lake Tahoe for a couple of days of hiking, exploration and relaxation. Most people think family trips suck, but not me. Maybe it's the fact that I don't really have any reason to hate my parents; maybe it's because they are supportive and caring; maybe it's because they just helped me pay for the PC I was talking about; maybe it's because they let me drink beer with them. It's probably the last one. Anyways, I had some of the most memorable experiences of my young adult life in the last 5 days, and I can pretty much thank my parents for all of it. Lake Tahoe is a beautiful, astounding, and wonderful place. I strongly suggest everyone goes before they get too old or the whole place is filled in.

I saw a psychologist on Thursday to reevaluate some stuff about my ADHD, and to address my almost nightly bouts of my fear of death. He ended up deciding I should try a different kind of medication for ADHD, instead of the one I have been taking for 8 years. It tends to make me... grumpy... although that isn't a listed side effect. On the subject of my fear of death, he didn't have much advice. He suggested I see a therapist while at UCSC and little else. He kept saying, "Interesting, interesting..." while I was explaining my fear. I thought this was normal; my brother has the same fear on a nightly basis, and he's 23. To a psychologist, I guess we're all special snowflakes.

Also, I messed up my back while in Tahoe and now even the slightest movement (and sometimes just staying perfectly still) hurts pretty bad. It's been going on like this for quite some time and I'd really love it if I'd just get better already, because ibuprofen doesn't do shit.
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2013-08-24 04:59 pm

Well, hey

So I just found out about this website through a friend and I thought it was a good idea.
I like the concept of basically having a personal journal that can be scrutinized by people you may or may not know. I also like having a place where I can get my thoughts out to people who don't know the individuals I might be complaining about (because we all have people we need to bitch about, don't we?). Or something along those lines; stuff you can't really tell your parents or your siblings or maybe even your close friends but you need to get out there. A personal mental flush is always good.
I don't really know what else to put. I feel like this website would be where I talk all about myself and my opinions, but I still feel hesitant. I have this instinct that people generally don't care about what other people have to say. We're all out for ourselves. Which raises the question: Why did I join this website in the first place?
Fuck it, I'll get used to talking about myself soon. It's just that I hate the people that only talk about themselves. But that's what this whole website is about, isn't it?

Oh yeah, one last thing: I tend to over-think stuff. I guess that's evident.